idk where this is going

my hearts been going crazy and I'm kinda numb he said he wants to spend today together when we both get off work but I don't know where we're going or how he feels because he wont really tell me. I keep wondering does he think of me before he goes to sleep like I do him? when I hug him does he not want me to let go like I really dont want him to? I think this could've or still could turn into something beautiful but I don't know how he feels its as if he wears a veneer that wont let his emotions show through. I only pray that I don't loose him. as pathetic as that sounds. my hearts confused simple as that. happy valentines day to the one I could've legitly loved.